I really hate my body at the moment, especially my anus and my bowel movements. Please help?
I'm a 15 year old male and I've absolutely hated my body for the last year.
In January 2009, I suffered from epididymitis on my left testicle. I now have a spermatocele (cyst) on each testicle now. I'm a hypochondriac and every pain I feel I think is something bad, I suffer from pains quite a bit. Because of the pain I felt when the doctor examined my testicles, touching the cysts, I get very nervous whenever I touch them or wash them in the shower. My parents say it's all psychological, but because of my hypochondria, I think it's something else. Every minor pain I get in my groin or testicle makes me anxious and worried that somethings wrong.
Moving onto another thing, my anus and bowel movements. I 've suffered from (I think) hemorrhoids since July last year and I have a tender lump outside the anal opening. I also have really long hair in the anal region, about 3 cm long and that's really difficult to clean after I've passed a motion and I have to clean in different sections. Another thing I've been experiencing for the past few days is a horrific sharp pain when I have a bowel movement, but I think that's to do with my hemorhoids. I'm extremely annoyed at all these lumps, pains and hair I have down there! I've got the hair lasered once before, but I can't get lasered now because I'm on Roaccutaine tablets for my acne.
Another think I'm self conscious of is my skinniness. I'm very tall and I look like a long stick! I've been using 4kg dumbells, hand grips and pushup bars since early January and I have seen very little improvement, it's probably making me skinnier, which I don't want!
I'm really hate my body at the moment! I feel like an old man in a teenager's body. What can I do to take my mind off all this?
I know many, many people are in worse conditions than I am, but please help me and tell me what I should do to cure some of the things I have.
Sassy OLD Broad: You don't have to be such fucking ass! I feel really, really bad for people with cancer and other problems. All I said was what can I do to calm myself down and stop worrying about these problems I currently have?
Mr.noitall: My parents know about how I'm feeling at the moment. No I was not diagnosed as a hypochondriac by a professional. I just feel like one, since whenever I feel pains, for example, in my testicles or groin, I think it's something bad, even though doctors say they can't find anything wrong.
No I have not sought counselling, but I'm seeing a doctor at the moment and have been talking about my feelings. I'll mention that I feel like a hypochondriac next time I see her.
Thank you.